Taken for Granted

“Never push a loyal person to the point that they no longer give a damn.”

Okay, so last summer I made a new friend let’s call him S. We met through a mutual friend, and instantly clicked. We spent hours texting back and forth, just having random chats about everything and anything. I quickly found out that he had sort of a depressive personality shall I say, so after he got comfortable talking to me, a lot of our conversations ended up talking about how depressed he was with things, relationships and the like.

After summer had finished, I went back to university and started hanging out with him, including him in my group of friends. It didn’t take long for him and this girl A to start “going at it”. Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t mind this, because it meant he was actually happy for a change. The bit that I do mind is when he suddenly drops me to hang out with her 24/7. The texting between us stopped, the messages online, the hanging out, everything. I was lucky to get a text a month from him.

I tried to organise time for me and S to hang out, but it somehow transpired that A would always appear and then it would be more like I interrupted their date. Very annoying. The thing that hurts most though, is the fact that he still does message me, but only when something is up between him and A, and he expects me to drop everything to help him with it.

The last straw came this week. I finally managed to get him to agree to hang out, but as soon as I said it would have to be up at mine rather than down near his, he went in a strop (bearing in mind that he’s spent the past month at A’s who lives down the road from me). When I explained that it would be cheaper for him to come to me, he didn’t even reply. He messaged me on the day saying “Oh, we were supposed to hang out today, sorry.” It was said in such a nonchalant way that it annoyed me. He seems to think that he can just pick me up whenever he wants, and then put me down when he’s bored.

Thing is though, I’ve been through something similar with a friend Y, and S knows about this, and how I eventually stopped talking with Y, yet he still does it. I guess it’s just one of those things. Maybe the friendship wasn’t as strong as I thought.

Until next time readers.

Remote Closeness

Is it possible to forge great friendships over the internet? If you asked this to anyone in the street, nine times out of ten they’d say no, call you crazy and run in the other direction. Odds are though, when asking on here, most of you will have done just that (made good friends, not running away).

There’s something about getting to know someone online. Most of the time there’s an instant connection with them as you’ve probably met them via something that you both have a mutual interest in. Maybe it’s through a computer game, a forum site, or some sort of social network. The point is, the foundations have already been laid for such a friendship.

As you continue to talk to these people, you find more and more things you have in common. I’ve found that a lot of the time because you’ve met someone somewhere specific you tend to like a lot of the same things, even if that’s nothing to do with how you’ve met. This is probably because you’ve got the same mindset or something.

Over the past year, I’ve met a great deal of people online through an MMORPG, and some of these people I would consider to be some of the greatest friends I’ve ever had. Obviously these friendships can come and go, but as for the here and now, it feels weird if I don’t talk to them each day, as if there’s something missing if I don’t have a chat with them. Whereas with my real life friends, I can go days without talking to them, and pick back up where we left off. Maybe there’s something in that, I’ve honestly got no idea.

Until next time readers.

The Future

So, it’s coming very close to graduation now; and to be honest, I’m kinda shitting it. At the moment I’m in a sort of limbo. I’ve finished all my exams and everything, but haven’t technically finished university because I haven’t graduated. I have no idea what I want to do after university.

Ever since I started my degree I’ve wanted to go in to education, either that or accountancy. But recently, I’ve been put off the idea of teaching. Mainly I think it’s because of the children; not that I can’t handle them or anything, because I’m pretty sure I can, it’s more the fact that I’ll probably end up blowing a fuse and doing something that I shouldn’t be (more likely than not, involving some sort of dismissal afterwards).

This leads me to choose accountancy instead, but I don’t think I could be in an office Monday to Friday, 9 to 5. It’s just not for me, I’d get too bored of the monotony. Unfortunately, it looks like I’ll be going this way though. Even though everyone has always said I’d make a brilliant trencher.

I guess I’ll just have a go at doing a post graduate degree in teaching, and see where I go from there.

Back to the Start

Welcome to the inner mind of a Manchester man.

At present, I’m not entirely sure what this blog is going to be about. I can see it being me complaining about every little thing that is happening (or not happening) in my life. But no-one wants to read that, I don’t think anyway. I’ll try and include some other things, although I’m not entirely sure what.

Let’s get the basics out of the way with. I’m a twenty-something guy living in Manchester in the UK. I want to try and keep this place as anonymous as possible so if I’m talking about people I’ll either avoid using their names (using he, she, etc) or use their initials instead. This also means that, while I’ll try and keep my posts detailed, I will be leaving some information out on purpose so as to protect my identity.

In all honesty, I’m sort of a people pleaser, so I try not to unload my problems on other people, rather I let them unload on me. This is going to be -my- place where I can unload everything, no matter what emotion I want to convey. I’m not going to clean up the language, I swear sometimes, deal with it. If you don’t like it, then you don’t have to read it. Simple as.

So that’s all I’ve got to say right now. I’ll be back soon.